Ramblings and revalations

I think, occasionally, about what I should do with my free time. This is a problem, you see, as free time sometimes is hard to find, as it is free, it does not belong to me. I once gamed, I know, "that thing that most guys do to waste their free time.” Gaming to me is kind of love hate as on one hand I had a very good time leveling my warrior to level 60 in World of Warcraft. On the other hand, I think I missed some pretty amazing things as well. Things like eating healthily, spending the time with my new family and the like. I know some people managed to do all these things, Alas I found it hard to coexist between the two worlds.

I have been officially game free for about four months and I am pretty happy about it. But for some reason I have in the back of my head a kind of uttering. You know that little sound that resonates within your mind, the one that wants you to do bad things like eat McDonalds and watch two or three movies in a row. That voice is saying to me “What game are we gonna play next?” This voice is both enchanting as well as scary. I was laughing the other day at myself because I found I was looking at some games to play for the summer. Then I thought, "Isn’t summer for being outside?" Oh well we will see.

No matter how old I get I find that I will or have always have or had a crutch, some sort of major/or minor addiction. If I’m not PC gaming I’m console gaming, or collecting and reading comics books, which after 10 years seem to be falling head first into again, again both enchanting and scary. Seems after the initial exposure to this whatever, say a couple months of uncontrolled indulgence, I seem to wake up. I now Think I will be able to say no to that comic’s book dealer when he says I should read the latest piece of crap comic. I now see a direct relationship between comic dealers and crack dealers, lol.